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To Jonah, on your first day of life

Thursday, August 5th, 2010

Note: I started this on 7/31. Today, 8/4, is his 5th day.

To my dear, sweet baby boy,

You totally and completely surprised your Daddy and me by deciding you’d like to enter the world today instead of on your due date, which is 27 days away. On Friday night, July 30th, 2010, your dad and I (and you, in my belly) went out for Thai food with our friends. By 11:00, I was upstairs folding laundry and talking to your Aunt Lisa on the phone. 4 minutes later, I found myself telling Lisa I had to go call the doctor, because “either I just peed my pants or my water just broke.”

Your daddy was convinced it was the former. I was convinced otherwise. Guess who was right?

I will spare you most of the details of your birth, but I will tell you that the experience of pushing you out of my body was the wildest, most surreal, and most amazing thing I have ever done or will ever do. Labor started out rough, but once we finally got into a Labor & Delivery room (and I got my blessed epidural), it was a pretty fantastic experience. Your arrival was assisted by your dad and three women (2 nurses and a midwife) that I had never met but instantly loved,to the point that I told them my experience felt like we were in The Red Tent, but with one boy in the room (and modern medicine)(I doubt you’ll ever read that book, as it is a more girly one than not, but who knows?).

After the umbilical cord that physically connected us over the past 36 and a half weeks was cut, the midwife placed you on my bare chest to warm you up. When I looked over at your dad, the tears streaming down his face matched my own – and let me tell you, he didn’t even cry at his own dad’s funeral (that’s a story for another day, though, little man).

You are, without a single doubt, the most marvelous person I have ever met. At less than 24 hours old, you already have a personality. You came out of the womb with your fist under your chin, like you were intently thinking about something (by the way,thanks for that elbow-in-the-perineum. Lucky for you, you’re too fabulous not to forgive. Just don’t resent me if you never have a sibling due to my fear of future baby-making activities with your dad)).

. We saw you in this pose on the ultrasound, and you do it a lot in your sleep or when you are nursing. You have beautiful, curious eyes. You have a healthy set of lungs, although you don’t tend to use them without good reason. You are a snuggle-bug, and when I see you cuddling with your Daddy, I’m amazed by how tiny you are. Your dad and I are prone to talking about how much we love you and how we can’t imagine NOT having you. It’s like you were part of our family long before you even existed.

I love you, little man.

Optimism, or lack thereof, and a book review.

Thursday, September 10th, 2009

I have really been neglecting the giant piles of books that are taking over my house these days, but I finally finished one that my pals at HarperCollins sent to me. The book is called I Shudder: And Other Reactions to Life, Death, and New Jersey and is by Paul Rudnick.

I don’t quite know what to say about the book. I liked it, but didn’t looooove it – but I’m hesitant to say that because I’m beginning to suspect that I simply don’t looooooove any sort of memoir/collection of essays type of book, and I fear that my criticism is more one of genre than of the book itself. I chose this book partly because it’s fun to make fun of New Jersey (even though they DO sell beer, wine, and liquor all in one store as opposed to Stupid Pennsylvania) and partly because I figured that it was bound to be funny since the author wrote the screenplay for the movie In & Out and I laughed a lot in it. The essays in the book fit a few different categories: (1) general wit and wisdom; (2) anecdotes about famous people and making movies and plays and stuff; and (3) what I presume are fiction vignettes from the “diary” of a character named Elyot Vionnet. In general, I loved the essays that fell into categories 1 and 3 and found myself skimming those in category 2.

There’s no denying that Paul Rudnick is a funny dude, and his book makes me want to go back in time so I can participate in some of his escapades (most notably, I would like to attend the party his friend William threw at The Chelsea Hotel. I’d also like to meet William’s sister Laura), but I’d also be content just to have a drink with the guy one day. Anyone who subsists on treats like Peeps is pretty ace in my book.
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In a complete shift of gears…

When I was in either 7th or 9th grade (I can’t remember which), some sort of motivational speaker dude came to my school. I remember very little about his speech other than the acronym he hammered into my young adult noggin: P.A.C.E., which stood for Positive Attitude Changes Everything!

I know. It kind of make me want to vomit, too. Here’s the rub, though: I think perhaps I should give it a try. I’ve come to the realization lately that I have really been looking at the dreary side of things lately when I don’t have that much to complain about. Sure, my job is ridiculous right now and I keep finding myself on the receiving end of such dire statements as, “If you don’t make a direct hire placement [translation: put an attorney in a permanent position with a big fat fee attached to it] soon, you’ll be out of a job” – but HELL, at least I still have a job, and I still have a job that ultimately isn’t that horrible. And I’m tired of letting that get me down.

SO. I think it’s time to get back to that Grace in Small Things project I was doing a while ago. I may not do it all official-like, where I go in and post my small things on the special Grace in Small Things website – that seems a bit overwhelming and high maintenance as I’m having a hard enough time posting over here on a regular basis lately – but I vow to at least attempt to write my little lists here. I am hoping that such positive thoughts will, indeed, Change Everything.

With no further ado:

Today’s Grace in Small Things
:

1. My pretty pink argyle cashmere sweater that I’m wearing.
2. The fact that I ate coffee cake every day during my mom’s visit and still managed to lose 3 pounds.
3. This one girl that was in my sister’s grade when we were growing up who is now my facebook friend even though we really don’t know each other. She is always so funny and sweet and commenty on my page and I get the biggest kick out of her.
4. I’m almost finished with the body portion of my spiral sweater! (Here’s an example of what it will sort of look like, but with different yarn.)
5. A full commitment-free weekend ahead of me.

Love

Friday, June 26th, 2009

You guys are so kind.  Thank you for all of your comments yesterday.  As an update: I did go to work today, and only cried once, and started on the Zoloft, which I have begun referring to as “Z”, which sounds a bit like “V” from True Blood in my mind but certainly doesn’t have the same effect as that did on the folks down in…whereversville, Louisiana.  But still.  Z!

I have also engaged in some retail therapy today.  I purchased two lipsticks and two nail polishes at Walgreen’s this morning, a wedding shower gift for the fabulous Teenie Baneenie, and four (FOUR!) knitting books at 40% off at KnitPicks.  I would normally be concerned about Rob balking at so many debits from our account in one day, but if I tell him it kept me from crying, methinks he will understand.

Want to hear what else makes me happy?  Charity knitting.  Through Ravelry, I became internet-friends with a wonderful woman named Knittah who has organized something called The Botswana Project.  That link goes to all her related Botswana posts, which include pictures, including my (awesome if I say so myself) contributions – mine are the green and pink sweaters.  Here’s the general gist, though: Knittah’s doctor works at the hospital at UPenn, which has partnered with an AIDS clinic in Botswana.  Did you know that pregnant women with AIDS can be treated so that their children are not born with AIDS?  That’s pretty fantastic, but the sad thing is that these children often become orphans due to their parents’ disease.  Did you also know that it gets cold in Botswana this time of year, and that most people there don’t have heat and therefore could really benefit by warm, handknitted items?  They can.  And, thanks to Knittah and her doctor, they do.  Knittah’s doctor and other doctors from UPenn accept donations, then carry them down to Botswana themselves and distribute them at the orphanage down there.  It is a wonderful, wonderful cause and I get all warm and fuzzy inside when I think of the warmth my fuzzy creations give to a bunch of strangers.  If you’re interested in contributing to the next batch (due September 19th), let me know and I will get you in touch with Knittah – or you can email her yourself.

With that, I’m off to desperately make a few more phone calls in a sad attempt to meet my daily goal (ugh!) before heading out for what promises to be a nice weekend with Rob and friends.

Much, much love and gratitude to you all.

Can I get a double-WOOT?

Monday, April 20th, 2009

I deserve not just one woot, but two, since I actually completed my 5K – without walking – on Saturday.  Woot woot! 

(Wait.  Now I sound like a train.  Woot woot!  All aboard!)  (Sorry.  Am sleepy and punchy.)

Anyway, hooray!  I ran very very slowly, but I ran the whole damn thing.    It took me 42 minutes and 44 and a half seconds, which translates into a 13:48 minute mile.  SLOW.  But who gives a hoot?  Finishing without walking was my goal, and finishing without walking was what I did.

I have to tell you, it felt good.  It felt DAMN good.  On that last mile, I kept looking down at Chester (who ran it with me.  Did I tell y’all that Chester was going to run with me?) and he’d look at me and I’d say, “We can DO THIS, Chester!”, which is pretty cheesy and dorky of me because, um, he’s a dog who runs around a LOT – he’s not worried about not being able to do it – but hey, whatever it takes to keep yourself going, right?  Anyway, imagine my surprise when I crossed the finish line and realized that holy crap, I CAN do this!.  It was nice.   And the weather was perfect, too.

My advice to anyone considering running a race like this is:
(1) Bring a bottle of water with you and leave it in your car.  That way, if you are so slow that the people hosting the race are OUT OF WATER by the time you finish, you will have something to drink soon.
(2) Bring your dog.  It really, really helped to have Chester with me.  Also, it is wonderful to have a buddy like him.  I have a serious case of puppy love, in case y’all haven’t noticed.
(3) Make sure your dog actually eats his herbal calming biscuit before you go instead of spitting it out on your living room rug.  He will be fine without it, but a little skittish.
(4) Have Lara’s Perfect 5K Playlist on your iPod.

What’s Lara’s Perfect 5K Playlist??  It is a gargantuan playlist of more songs that I could possibly need for a jog, so that if a song isn’t working for me on a particular day, I can always fast forward right through it without fearing that I”ll run out.    In this particular instance, the songs that I used were:

  • Pump It - The Black-Eyed Peas
  • A-Punk – Vampire Weekend
  • Shake It – Metro Station
  • Believe in Me – Rooney
  • Feel Good Inc. – Gorillaz
  • Disturbia – Rhianna
  • We Run This – Missy Elliott (but I fast forwarded)
  • Darshan – B21 (again, I fast-forwarded, although this song usually works for me)
  • Move Along – The All-American Rejects
  • Shame On You – Indigo Girls
  • Numb/Encore – Jay-Z & Linkin Park
  • Snakehandler – Jupiter Coyote (I fast-forwarded)
  • Pon de Replay – Rhianna (again!   You might think I am a big Rhianna fan but these are the only two songs of hers that I know.)

I think that’s it, but towards the end I was doing all sorts of fast-forwarding. 

In other news, I drank wine and made more Ukrainian eggs last night – a project about which I seem to be more than a little obsessed these days – and then, randomly, at well after midnight, got an urge to super-clean my bathroom.  Urges to clean are rare in these parts, so I decided to act on it.  I’m exhausted today, but I think it was worth it.

What’s new with you?  What songs are you jogging to these days?